Vanity

I woke up in daze after what's supposed to be a power nap. Piles and piles of schedule from the weeks before left me in sleep deprivation, consolidated with three days without my eyecream. That forced a beauty sleep to be slipped into a busy happy hour Friday. 

I got a dinner plan that night at 8, snoozed my alarm at 8, then automatically opened my inbox, a latent habit of mine which is not very great. Apparently most of the attendees would be late. Good. I changed clothes and dabbed some darkhorse shadows on my eyes. 

The dinner place where we wanted to go was always packed. But apparently, my friend, being a busy banker who should assess credit approval for the mid level companies in Indonesia, matching their performance with the green compliance, and who just got back from her 10-day business training in Hong Kong forgot to book the place and thinking we were one of the "it" clans in Jakarta who could just snatch any table in this city. No, we were not. 

When we are dancing and you're dangerously close to me, I get ideas. I want to hold you so much closer than I dare do.

TED

"I want somebody to bang his head, making him realize what he truly feels (about me)." But girlfriend, his pals are not a teddy bear, his pals will give him booze, striptease vouchers, and advice him to forget your intelligent face with that glasses, your political thoughts, your similar hobbies. They would say raw meat are everywhere for him to enter in. He is free, independent, and self-sufficient, why would he need your insight and frequent make out with the same person. Not all guys have a talking teddy bear. And maybe he is just not that into you. Moreover, as someone said, all relationships are the wrong one, they will end, unless you're in the right one. 

Kisses for all my girl friends.

My Trip to Solo

Current Fixation

"All parents tend to be more conservative for their kids than they would for themselves, simply because, as parents, they share risks more than rewards. If your eight year old son decides to climb a tall tree, or your teenage daughter decides to date the local bad boy, you won't get a share in the excitement, but if your son falls, or your daughter gets pregnant, you'll have to deal with the consequences." from "How To Do What You Love"

about race, religion, color, ethnicity, and so on... It is all in our mind. Freedom of expression defenders would say, expression will not harm others, but what you do to others will. However, I would love to imagine, when the world is sterile, say people one hundred percent will not harm others physically, mentally, anything tangible, everyone upholds human rights, no war and no blood shed, what is left is what we have in our mind. If we think that basically Papuan people are slaves, but we refrain from slaving them around right now... I don't know maybe because the law says you shouldn't, because we don't want them to attack or us back, what would we do with that inert hatred in a sterile world? When all of our limbs are immobilized and human race communicates through language of the soul, no physical contact, what is left other than our thought? That is why I've always thought, the regulation "do not harm others" is for imperfect society, the society of "at least", society which is only responsible and only regulates what is tangible, what we can sense and absorb with our five senses. Of course we shouldn't regulate what people have in minds and put the Big Brother in everyone's brain. That is why government promotes education, etc to improve common agreeable term of what is good. To hold each of us responsible, even if we are not being watched by the law. But, Haidt said, "Reason doesn’t work like a judge or teacher, impartially weighing evidence or guiding us to wisdom. It works more like a lawyer or press secretary, justifying our acts and judgments to others." Yes, I am now still questioning the use of education and reason, honestly. Btw, if our mind still think what is different is bad, what happens is not genuine respect. It is, instead, talking behind people's back and progressing as a society in snail km per hour.

They say, if you love someone, you have to let em go. Now, where could I sue for insurance if this method doesn't work?

Btw, I've broken several DeStorm's commandments in this hilarious video: